You're Given The Chance of Lifetime, You Stupid Cow!

[sweetprince]

I just wrote the worst paper of my entire life. I can't bring myself to edit it. I can't bring myself to do anything with it.

I walk through this school and all I see is that I'm not doing enough--I can't talk to my roommates because every single time I show the slightest inkling of being unhappy they think I'm going to jump out the window.

I'm always left here thinking what am I doing wrong? Why aren't I good at anything?

Lauren

Ach, they'll be so mad at me if they see me cry.

Comments

[xtinethepirate.livejournal.com]

Hey. Apathy hits us all from time to time. Don't beat yourself up about it. This Monday, I woke up in the morning, but decided to skip all my classes because I just couldn't bring myself to get out of bed. Winter is a really sucky time of year, and it hits everyone with lows. Don't be so hard on yourself!

OBVIOUSLY you're hella smart to be where you are. And you know what? Your paper is probably a lot better than you think it is. You're awesome and talented and really sweet too. I know it's easier to say than do, but try not to beat yourself up.

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

But it has two SOURCES, no organization, and no thesis! Not to mention is 3/4ths of a page too short! I am sure it is awful. Positive in fact.

But thank you, for telling me it isn't anyway, I appreciate it.

[riot-fox311.livejournal.com]

So I'm not nearly as Wisdomful as xtinethepirate, so I'll just stick with saying, she's totally right. And I don't even know much about you but from what I can tell you're pretty awesome, no matter how good your paper is (which, I'm sure it is not as bad as you think it is, because we are all harder on ourselves that we should be). I hope you feel better soon, and until then I will do the menacing dance of positive vibes. *nods* (Sorry, I suck at cheering up, but this is an honest effort, I swear.)So...yeah. *does the dance*

[riot-fox311.livejournal.com]

also- people being mad at you for crying=so not cool. Everyone needs to cry sometimes. (I myself had a mad snot fest earlier today, and it was very helpful). If you do cry, you can use my imaginary magic tissues to keep yourself from having a snot fest...*continues dancing*

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

They can't really deal with the fact that I have a clinical diagnosis of depression. They say it stresses them out--like hah, I'm not stressed out over it?

*the menacing dance of positive vibes is still pretty awesome*

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

I don't know, the menacing Dance of positive vibes was pretty successful.

[riot-fox311.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm glad. And, fuck your room mates. (Actually, that's probably a bad plan, but I think you got my drift...). *kisses* Schmoodles.

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Oh man, yeah, fucking my homophobic (well one isn't homophobic she's just afraid of sex and I think the other one is secretly bi...so) room mates, god. Wouldn't that be fun.

[kyuubikitsune.livejournal.com]

How do you know your paper is so bad? Have anybody else seen it? I don't believe that with a talent like yours you can possibly write anything bad. Who said you aren't good at anything? You are being so totally unreasonably hard on yourself. And if you don't see yourself doing anything wrong, then you definitely aren't.

I've read your fic today, and was just in a middle of writing a comment when my computer crashed. I got it back on in an hour, and then I see this post. No way!

What I wanted to write was that your fic was incredible, and I got so excited reading it that I burned my dinner twice. It's just a crossover I’ve been looking for ages, been craving for it. I love your writing style, it's very clean and easy to follow, and it flows beautifully just at the right pace. I like your Sam, and I think I am in love with your Dean. I can't wait for the next two chapters.

So. If you feeling a little sad for one reason or another, it probably is just a bad day. It will pass.

I hope you feel better tomorrow and bring us more of your fic (and I am not saying this just because I am so impatient for more, which I am), and, please, cheer up, and don't be so hard on yourself.

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Oh believe me, I can write crap.

Anyway, I'm glad you liked my fic so much. That really cheered me up. My Dean is pretty awesome. Not to be arrogant, because it's probably do to his leather-clad rear, than anything else. I think I shall make that manditory for all future stories. DEAN IN LEATHER.

Anyway, thank you for taking the time to respond to my crazy rantage post. I appreciate it and thanks alot.

*would you think it odd if I friended you?*

[kyuubikitsune.livejournal.com]

You are right. Your Dean is awesome! My dreams last night were filled with visions of his leather-clad rear.

I hope you are feeling better today.

And i would be delighted if you friended me.

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

I friended away.