In mourning...

[sweetprince]

My next exam is a little less than eight hours away. Alicia called at 1 AM and woke me up and now I can't sleep. Fuck. I suppose I could study more, but I don't see the use. Also, my ipod broke today. I'm not sure how. Or when. Or why. Goddamn you, Steve Jobs!

I also can't believe in a little more than ten days I'll be 19. Sometimes I feel like I sorta stopped at 17 and 18 just never hit. I had so many plans when I was younger that I was going to do before I was 19. I look at it now and I haven't done any of it. And in some cases it's too late. I'm so young, but I feel so freakin' old.

My room-mates have set an ultimatum: either I go on medication or else. I think they're worried that I'm going to kill myself. I'm not. I swear. Because tomorrow always has the possibility of being a better day, even if I can't seem to see it right now. All I feel right now is overwhelmed. God, it doesn't seem like it's about to be Christmas.

Comments

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

*big hugs* Lauren. ♥ Wish you the very best of luck with your exam! *good thoughts and prayers* :)

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

I just got finished ten minutes ago. I think it really went well. I wrote sixteen pages, so that has to count for something, however, I'm not sure my hands will ever work again. Gotta do something about that.

Thank you much, Linda.

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

*sends D&D to massages your hands for you*

;)

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

awww.

[triaelf9.livejournal.com]

I'm 20 and i feel 12. it's really odd. ^_^ buck up! everything will get better, it always does ^_^

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Elaine.

[(Anonymous)]

im so sorry! i thougt you were home, for serious. poor roren didnt get sleep before her final. ill make it up to you. BTW, please start turning your phone ON, that is the point of owning a cell phone. so people can call you sometimes. im so fucking bored i don't know what to do with myself.help

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

I will send you a message on facebook, because you will probably recieve that.

[whimsicalwonder.livejournal.com]

and what the hell is the "or else" thing?

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Fucked if I know . . .they might start singing "Sexyback" every single time I'd enter a room, that would be a pretty strict punishment

[(Anonymous)]

Okok I was totally going to tell you this in person and then I forgot, but have you tried light therapy? And if not, it worked for my uncle (who is one of the most screwed-up people I know--I'll say more in person), which increased my faith in it exponentially...

This might sound to you like what "Oh, yeah, my sister had migranes and she tried this really cool medicine TYLENOL and they totally went away!" would sound like to me, but I figured I'd try.

[bananafish.livejournal.com]

Not that you couldn't tell that was me anyways.

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

My mom actually bought my a UV lamp and it's sitting in the post office in New Haven at the moment. Don't worry, I'm trying it, never fear that I don't take you seriously.

My room-mates are gonna love it, seriously. We need more light in our room.