I'm Scared

[sweetprince]

[	mood	|	worried	]
[	music	|	Strict Machine-Goldfrapp	]

Well, lovies, things have taken a decided turn for the worse.

I'm waiting right now, on edge, to get a call from the doctor. Two discs in my spine, in the cervical vertebrae to be exact ( I looked it up, sure proof I'm freakin' worried), are out of allignment as a result of the infamous car accident. I really thought it was no big deal when Stanford called and said there were abnormalities with my neck. I thought to myself, hey, it's not hurting, nothing is wrong.

If the radiologist decides it's a serious injury, I will have to get neurosurgery. Which, like any surgery, scares me. Alot. A whole fucking lot. The doctor says it's not critical now, but one wrong move and I could sever my spinal cord, which would be the end of everything.

Hey, at least my wrist is coming together nicely, it's a rather hollow comfort though. I'm sorry if lately I've come across as a whiny bitch, I wish I could stop myself. Everything seems destined to go round the proverbial bend. Although, Flo did join last.fm (which all of you music obsessees should do), so that, at least, is something.

to whom it may concern . . .going to Japan town for Odango, Zaru Udon, Manga, and 8 different flavors of pokki. Hey Ali, do you want anything? Oh and Ali? Don't tell my dad about the whole neurosurgery thing, he would never let me out of the house again.

Comments

[izzardwizzard.livejournal.com]

Holy shit! Honey! I'm praying that the radiologist comes back and says he just spilled soup ersomething on your films. Seriously, I hope you get good news and can avoid any kind of surgery. Either way, I'll keep you in my prayers!

And don't be silly about feeling like a whiny bitch. A) I don't get that at all and B) LJ is the best place to bitch if the notion strikes.

So anyway, take care!

*delicate hugs*

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Well, I've already seen the first films and the two discs are clearly messed up, but my doctor then went on to admit that she was no expert on x-rays. Which added to the long list of other mistakes she's made only further proves her incompetence to me.

Hopefully the radiologist will say, "Hey, this is your actual neck. It's perfectly normal that you have shifty discs." Well obviously even with the shifty discs it's my actual neck, but you get what I mean.

I'm glad to hear that I'm not coming across whiny. This is a comfort.

Thank you *hugs back* and my neck really doesn't hurt, so it all came as a surprise to me.

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

Hey Lauren, you're aloud to whine. Especially if it helps keep you sane. *Hugs* I'll keep you in my prayers. ♥

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Linda. *hugs*

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

*slaps forehead* I meant allowed. lol. *sigh* Still. Many hugs and prayers. ♥

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

I was kind of giggling over that, since you NEVER make typos.

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah I do, lol. Sometimes I'm just lucky enough to catch them before I hit post. :P

[imabubble.livejournal.com]

Oh my god...o_O
Good luck with the surgery!

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I hope as Wyndmir said, that they just spilled soup on the films.

Babe

[thothali.livejournal.com]

I hope you dont need sugery... that would really suck... I wont tell anyone.... as for japan town... do I ever know what I want? though im not crazy for pokki

Re: Babe

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Oh well, anyway, so the car scheme isn't going to work. Could you come help me unpack and all the rest of that? For a small fee of course.

[rubyhawx.livejournal.com]

*hugshugshugs!* I'm sowwee! Best of luck. >< I really hope the surgery goes well. Think happy thoughts? *hugs again*