I'm Scared

[	mood	|	worried	]
[	music	|	Strict Machine-Goldfrapp	]

Well, lovies, things have taken a decided turn for the worse.

I'm waiting right now, on edge, to get a call from the doctor. Two discs in my spine, in the cervical vertebrae to be exact ( I looked it up, sure proof I'm freakin' worried), are out of allignment as a result of the infamous car accident. I really thought it was no big deal when Stanford called and said there were abnormalities with my neck. I thought to myself, hey, it's not hurting, nothing is wrong.

If the radiologist decides it's a serious injury, I will have to get neurosurgery. Which, like any surgery, scares me. Alot. A whole fucking lot. The doctor says it's not critical now, but one wrong move and I could sever my spinal cord, which would be the end of everything.

Hey, at least my wrist is coming together nicely, it's a rather hollow comfort though. I'm sorry if lately I've come across as a whiny bitch, I wish I could stop myself. Everything seems destined to go round the proverbial bend. Although, Flo did join last.fm (which all of you music obsessees should do), so that, at least, is something.

to whom it may concern . . .going to Japan town for Odango, Zaru Udon, Manga, and 8 different flavors of pokki. Hey Ali, do you want anything? Oh and Ali? Don't tell my dad about the whole neurosurgery thing, he would never let me out of the house again.