I know how it feels though that doesn't make it any better.

But this is up to you and no one else. You aren't happy with things? Then change them, step back, look at what you don't like and make plans to change it. Find the bright points of life and look at them rather than into the darkness. You my dear are a star, a star that others cluster around to reflect the amazing light that comes from you, but right now there isn't as much, do not doubt yourself because we all know you are a truely amazing and magnificent person. You are loved, so utterly, do not loose sight of that. Do what you need to and build yourself back up again.

I know you can, because I'm learning to do the same