Why do I suck at life?

[sweetprince]

There are finally, FINALLY, leaves on the trees out here. Well, that is to say, one tree at the master's house. I'm not sure I can do four more years of this. Especially since I always feel so marginilized here. And I know you guys think it's a tired argument from me, but I cannot escape the feeling that I'm entirely worthless.

I can't even write. *drops head*

I'm going to go nap now and hope that...the day looks better upon waking up. Un-fucking-likely, as it never ceases to rain.

Comments

[ilovesn.livejournal.com]

whats wrong lauren?

you're a great person and you SOO can write

:D

I hope you feel better

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

No I didn't mean that I didn't have the ability to write, just that it wasn't coming. I hope I feel better too.

Thanks for the comfort, Lis.

[ilovesn.livejournal.com]

oh *giggles*

I'm a dork

i'm glad that i could help

i love ya :D

[maypirate.livejournal.com]

Like you said, we don't really know each other that well, but you held out a hand to me when I felt like crap and I want to do the same for you.

I can't offer much, but maybe just someone who is so far outside to listen, and also the observation that you are not worthless and never will be, that sometimes writing is elusive and hard and horrible, and that although the day might not look better when you wake up, it's still already tomorrow in Australia, and I dunno, maybe tomorrow's will be a little better.

If there's anything I can do, just ask.

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

Hop up and down three times! No I'm just kidding. But thanks. It means a lot to me.

[maypirate.livejournal.com]

*uses me-hopping icon? :D*

[dark-reaction.livejournal.com]

That cheers a girl right up.